Oh baby, baby

We are expecting, yaaayyy just short of our 1 year anniversary we discovered I am PREGNANT! I am still waiting for it to sink in, we've heard the heart beat and have seen our little bean but I am still waiting for it to feel real ( because puking isn't real enough haha) Anyway I am going to make this short today I stole this little survey and I will use it for the rest of my blogs. I also love the cute pinterest idea of the chalk board so I will be doing that too!

How far along: 10weeks 4 days

Maternity clothes:  I  bought some already because I feel so BLEEEHHH in my clothes and my clothes are just not fitting comfortable. Mainly wearing yoga pants and t-shirts though.

Stretch marks: Well I already had some, and yes I am already seeing some new red ones, I don't even care honestly I will never flaunt my tummy to the world so it doesn't matter to me.  I do notice if I rub pure coconut oil on it feels less itchy throughout the day.

Sleep: I can't get enough! I go to bed around 8-10pm wake up somewhere between 7-9a and then I HAVE to take a nap around 1:30 for like 2 hours...

Best moment this week: Going to Mexico for a week with my hubby to celebrate our anniversary and now home to celebrate his bday tonight.

Miss anything: I thought maybe sushi, well I ate COOKED sushi yesterday and BLEH threw it all up on my plate in the restaurant....I've never been so embarrassed

Morning sickness: I have felt bleh but nothing too bad, except the sushi puke and today I drank ginger ale and ate half an orange and bleeh up it came about 10 minutes later..

Movement: Not yet

Symptoms: Food aversions, lack of appetite, and SOO SLEEPY

Food cravings: I wanted blueberry pancakes for a few days and then green apples with vanilla greek yogurt but nothing else really craving wise, some things sound good until I look at it.
Anything making you queasy or sick: ANYTHING IN A TO GO BOX. Especially in the car.

Have you started to show yet: I wish I could say no but even my own hubby and mom say you can tell. BOO!

Gender prediction: Boy

Labor signs: No

Belly button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody most of the time: I've been okay I have had a few snaps but nothing crazy yet no crying for no reason or anything yet.

Looking forward to: Hopefully not puking again! Our next Dr. visit in 2 weeks!!!Thanksgiving dinner (if I don't puke it up). Also our Temple Sealing on 12.12.12

Custom Fat suit

Okay, this is going to be yet another rant blog, so if you don't want to hear it please don't continue reading :) thanks.
Well finally after waiting for a long while I have finally got my MRI, I picked up my report today. Of course it states that my c6-7 disc is bulged (yeah I knew this) good news is, it SHOULD be treatable as it has been in the past, and other good news is, in the report it specifically states it is not effecting my spinal cord *thank GOD!* I can rest somewhat easier. Anyways, I was talking crying to my hubby the other night about how I am starting to feel depressed I don't have any motivation and or motive to get up during the day, I am gradually beginning to hate myself, the way I look and the way I feel. I feel so helpless/hopeless I can't do anything physical so I clean my house all day or do laundry, I literally can't do anyting physical with my limitations on working out, and even the "simple" act of sex ends with my neck,shoulder, or head hurting :(. I feel so cooped up (no one is making me but I feel like I am caged). I need something to do I think I am going to try to get a job again because I think it will be something to keep me busy, but I don't know where I can go work that I will be able to sit or stand as needed, because either at a prolonged period of time HURTS. To add to my frustration of feeling so crappy about me lately, I got this image

  All I see in this image is me INSIDE of me..it truly is hard not to cry when I see this, I see a perfect muscular structure encased with sooo much FAT, it disgusts me, what makes it so difficult to look at this is knowing there is NOTHING I can do about it at the moment, aside from eating well. I don't want to take hormones, or prescriptions, or pills to "fix" this I want to workout, sweat, and earn that inner me, but it's so unobtainable right now with my limitations set by the doctors. I wish there was A miracle that would just make me thin HEALTHY

I don't have much else to talk about right now I am going to go, I am going to go to PT tomorrow and see if they can't help me get the neck, shoulder 4 day pinching headache relieved for me some and give them the MRI images. Hopefully I can start a program soon and get some relief and results!

sitting, waiting, wishing

okay, so it appears I am out for a long count. i went to my doctor who has worked on my neck and back the past five years. normally i go in he adjusts my back and neck, well today he told me he would not touch my neck. he asked if i have experienced any trauma in the past six months ,which i have not but i guess if he hadnt known any better he would guess i did. soooooo as he is doing his consultation he is testing out my shoulder which has been killer lately, and he said its actually fine but my neck isnt, i made the actual appt to request an mri for my shoulder and neck....anyway he said if i werent requesting it he would have suggested it anyway...so anyways i pretty much begged him to pop my back, so he did and as he was i asked him if my hip, knee, and ankle pain could be from my neck...his response was that more than likely, and that my bulged disks may be pressing into my spinal cord....Omg scary....so at the moment i am trying my hardest to not stress about it until my mri, if i do its going to just cause me more tension and more tension is just going to irriatate the disk area.... i am praying its not anywhere near my spinal cord, im pretty scared, although he didnt seem overly concerned with telling me it could be swelling into it...sigh... guess insanity may never happen again...at this time i was told veeeerrryy low impact, so looks like the pool will become my walking partner... sorry this whole thing has even worse than usual puncuation, my phone will only let me hit . and , wont even let me cap a letter....well i will kepp ya all posted, after the mri.

Broken hearted

Okay, so as you may know I started physical therapy for my shoulder pains.... Well it's been 2 weeks and to start out I was told by my therapist I could do INSANITY but not do the burpies( shoot I will take whatever excuse I can to not have to do burpies/suicide jumps) anyways I did my fit test and measurements which I will include here; I went to therapy this week and apparently I was super inflammed, and was told to refrain from ANY physical activity not just INSANITY... I wanted to cry. As the past few days went by I got soooooo bored at home all day, it's amazing when you're told you CAN NOT do something how much more you actually want to do it. I had therapy again today and I actually cried avery little when i was told I can not go kayaking this weekend, I don't kayak a whole lot but it's so nice out and I was looking at my kayak and just really really wanted to do a lake day with Josh and Baxter our puppy who loves water. Anyways that big fat NO was so heart breaking, I feel so helpless not being able to do anything, and because I started losing weight and looooovveeee INSANITY and now can't do it, I just feel lost. :( so I wont be posting too many updates any time too soon. I am going to continue healthy eating habits and walk as often as possible, the last thing I want to do is gain back the 9 lbs I worked so hard to lose. I was told I can do squats and belt kicks but I had to modify the moves so that my arms aren't swinging. This is not all shoulder deep though... If you read my about me on here you will recall me talking about my neck injury from when I was 9, well everything is stemming off of that injury at the moment, but at the same time 3 seperation injuries; my neck, shoulder, and apparently my elbow. I will refrain from any activity I'm told to refrain from until further notice I want to get better. (If that is possible) so my physical activity today consisted of raising a broom handle over my head 20 times, bench pressing it 20 times and twisting it in front of me 20 times, neck stretches, traction, and getting my shoulder/neck dug into with a metal tool by the therapist... At this point I wish I hadn't gone in at all, maybe I would still be doing my INSANITY to my limits. Oh almost forgot 50 squats and 20 belt kicks before I went in ( yes before I had approval, I had to do some thing) Okay as of4/20 my measurements and such Belly 44.5 (+.5in)I blame PMS Chest 45.25 (-2.75) again I blame PMS L bicep 15 (-1in) R bicep 15 -(1in) Waist 38.5 (-1.75) Hips/butt 50.25 (-1in) L thigh 29 (-.75in) R thigh 28.5 (-1in) L calf 18 (+.5in) R calf 17.5 (same) Underboob 39 (+.25) Neck 14 (-.5) Weight 220 (+5 lbs) blaming PMS I weighed in today at 217 These numbers truly make me sad, I guess that's what happens when you take a week off.. Fit test Switch kicks 41 on right (+2) Power jacks 31 (+12) Power knees 80 (+18) Power jumps 22 (+8) Globe jumps 10 (+5) Suicide jumps 0 per therapist Push up jacks 20 high plank (+ 12) Low plank oblique 33 (+21) Definitely got stronger, but at the same time evidently weaker in my neck and shoulder... I hope to be returning VERY soon full force, and when I do INSANITY is going to be mine again, non stop!

SlAcKeR!

Slacker def: ME

Okay, so I have been a bad bad bad girl! I was up to day 39 of INSANITY without more than a few days off off once. Which I believe is where I left off last blog. Anyway since than its been uhm, way too long but I have worked out about 3 times. :( and feel so crappy for it. I started back up today. I now have some limitations though, because that lovely shoulder of mine was just not agreeing with the workouts, I started PT last Monday and apparently I have technically 3 injuries (not all from working out) one in my neck (from a car accident as a kid) my shoulder and I guess my elbow (which I had no idea my elbow was injured seeing as it didn't bother me much.) Anyways I get to get "tortured" every Mon and Thurs, but the secret is I enjoy it, I am doing traction and then my PT guy takes a metal majigger and digs it into the knots and grinds them out *woooo weeee* hurts so good!

Anyway back to INSANITY( I don't know why I just feel like it needs to be in CAPS) I started full swing back today and it hurt..kinda good, but not so good. I have also been sick with allergies, stuffy nose, cough, and what not so it made it really difficult to breathe during the workout. I am back though I can't believe the difference between being healthy and not. I will be doing a blog tomorrow too after I do my most recent fit test. and measurements, I did a few measurements and wasn't too disappointed after 2 weeks off I haven't gained any inches back.. *WHEW* After the next 4 days finishing out this week Josh and I have decided to re-start the entire program, and repeat until we reach a healthy spot!

Well enough rambling I'm going to clean up from our week vaca in Mexico LAUNDRY LAUNDRY LAUNDRY... eck so I guess I should now throw a few pics from Mexico on here for your enjoyment :)

My amzaing silly crazy family

Beautiful sunrise the day we left

I love this man more than anything in this world

AH can't get over how much I love him

A majority of the most important people in my life!

J-E-L-L-O

Oh my gosh! As of today we started back to our Insanity after taking 3 days off ( I hurt my shoulder, and we go pretty busy too). Today also just so happened to start the "second half" of Insanity Holy Mother of Everything!!!!! The workout today was not like anything you see in the infomercial, nor is it anything like the first 6 weeks. It is INSANE!! 

Max interval training was ridiculous and my body is JELLO right now! My shoulder is also SCREAMING. I don't know what I did to it exactly, but back when I had very first done Xfit I was doing tricep-dips on the bleachers and something popped, ever since if I do any tricep-dips my shoulder hurts; well it has progressed to hurting while doing planks, push ups, or intense punches...so I am trying to be really careful. However it is pretty persistent so I will more than likely be making a Dr. appt soon. Oh yeah also burned 500+ calories in the workout! Sadly I forgot to put my Body Bugg on during my fit test today.

So because Blogger/blog spot is so cool it showed me where people are viewing from. I have had views in Malaysia, and Russia (kinda scary, but scary in a cool kinda way). Anyway you all aren't here to hear me ramble one about randomness so I will now post my pictures, measurements, and results from today's fit test!

Fit test results- Day 1 Day 15 Day 36

 SWITCH KICKS 39 40 38 (I did worse, could have been the few days off) -1
POWER JACKS 19 27 29 +10
POWER KNEES 62 63 69 +7
POWER JUMPS 14 25 22 (AGAIN WORSE I BLAME THE FEW DAYS OFF) +8
GLOBE JUMPS 5  10 9 +4
SUICIDE JUMPS 7 9 11 +4
PUSH-UP JACKS 8 (ON KNEES) 12 (HIGH PLANK) 14 +6
LOW PLANK OBLIQUE 12(KNEES) 24(HIGH PLANK) 28 +16

Measurements- Day 1 Day 15 Day 36

Waist *40.25* -39.5- 39.25 1 in

Belly *45* -44- 44.5 ( I think I am bloated) .5in

Under boob *39.5* -38.75- 39 .5in

Boobs *48* -44.5- 44.5 3.5in

Butt *51.25* -50- 50.5 .75in

Right thigh *29.5* -29- 28.5 1in

Left thigh *29.75* -28.75- 28.75 1in

Right bicep *16* -15- 15.25 .75in

Left bicep *16* -15- 15 1in

Right forearm *10.25* -10- 10 .25in

Left forearm *9.5* -10- 10 +.5in

Right calf *17.5* -18- 17.5 same
Left Calf *17.5* -18.5-  17.75 +.25
9.5 inches over all in 36 days not too shabby!




And now the pictures!

As promised

As I promised, here is my update!! Today we got a new area rug for our living room, we have bought all kinds of yoga, and other workout mats, all have failed terribly, we needed something to stick to our wood flooring. Finally the area rug ( ugly as it is) is successful!! As of today here are my measurements.

Waist -39.5

Belly- 44

Under boob-38.75

Boobs/chest-44 shrinking away :( really odd thing is I can't see over my boobs to see my belly, I think I'm wider at my belly cus josh said my gut doesn't look the same extension as my boobs...

Butt-50.5 got bigger boo

R thigh-29

Left-28.75

Right calf-17.75

Left-18

Right bicep-15

Left-15

Right forearm-10.5

Left-10.25

I find it interesting that things change every week.

Well chicken is done boiling gotta go finish dinner!!