Broken hearted

Okay, so as you may know I started physical therapy for my shoulder pains.... Well it's been 2 weeks and to start out I was told by my therapist I could do INSANITY but not do the burpies( shoot I will take whatever excuse I can to not have to do burpies/suicide jumps) anyways I did my fit test and measurements which I will include here; I went to therapy this week and apparently I was super inflammed, and was told to refrain from ANY physical activity not just INSANITY... I wanted to cry. As the past few days went by I got soooooo bored at home all day, it's amazing when you're told you CAN NOT do something how much more you actually want to do it. I had therapy again today and I actually cried avery little when i was told I can not go kayaking this weekend, I don't kayak a whole lot but it's so nice out and I was looking at my kayak and just really really wanted to do a lake day with Josh and Baxter our puppy who loves water. Anyways that big fat NO was so heart breaking, I feel so helpless not being able to do anything, and because I started losing weight and looooovveeee INSANITY and now can't do it, I just feel lost. :( so I wont be posting too many updates any time too soon. I am going to continue healthy eating habits and walk as often as possible, the last thing I want to do is gain back the 9 lbs I worked so hard to lose. I was told I can do squats and belt kicks but I had to modify the moves so that my arms aren't swinging. This is not all shoulder deep though... If you read my about me on here you will recall me talking about my neck injury from when I was 9, well everything is stemming off of that injury at the moment, but at the same time 3 seperation injuries; my neck, shoulder, and apparently my elbow. I will refrain from any activity I'm told to refrain from until further notice I want to get better. (If that is possible) so my physical activity today consisted of raising a broom handle over my head 20 times, bench pressing it 20 times and twisting it in front of me 20 times, neck stretches, traction, and getting my shoulder/neck dug into with a metal tool by the therapist... At this point I wish I hadn't gone in at all, maybe I would still be doing my INSANITY to my limits. Oh almost forgot 50 squats and 20 belt kicks before I went in ( yes before I had approval, I had to do some thing) Okay as of4/20 my measurements and such Belly 44.5 (+.5in)I blame PMS Chest 45.25 (-2.75) again I blame PMS L bicep 15 (-1in) R bicep 15 -(1in) Waist 38.5 (-1.75) Hips/butt 50.25 (-1in) L thigh 29 (-.75in) R thigh 28.5 (-1in) L calf 18 (+.5in) R calf 17.5 (same) Underboob 39 (+.25) Neck 14 (-.5) Weight 220 (+5 lbs) blaming PMS I weighed in today at 217 These numbers truly make me sad, I guess that's what happens when you take a week off.. Fit test Switch kicks 41 on right (+2) Power jacks 31 (+12) Power knees 80 (+18) Power jumps 22 (+8) Globe jumps 10 (+5) Suicide jumps 0 per therapist Push up jacks 20 high plank (+ 12) Low plank oblique 33 (+21) Definitely got stronger, but at the same time evidently weaker in my neck and shoulder... I hope to be returning VERY soon full force, and when I do INSANITY is going to be mine again, non stop!

SlAcKeR!

Slacker def: ME

Okay, so I have been a bad bad bad girl! I was up to day 39 of INSANITY without more than a few days off off once. Which I believe is where I left off last blog. Anyway since than its been uhm, way too long but I have worked out about 3 times. :( and feel so crappy for it. I started back up today. I now have some limitations though, because that lovely shoulder of mine was just not agreeing with the workouts, I started PT last Monday and apparently I have technically 3 injuries (not all from working out) one in my neck (from a car accident as a kid) my shoulder and I guess my elbow (which I had no idea my elbow was injured seeing as it didn't bother me much.) Anyways I get to get "tortured" every Mon and Thurs, but the secret is I enjoy it, I am doing traction and then my PT guy takes a metal majigger and digs it into the knots and grinds them out *woooo weeee* hurts so good!

Anyway back to INSANITY( I don't know why I just feel like it needs to be in CAPS) I started full swing back today and it hurt..kinda good, but not so good. I have also been sick with allergies, stuffy nose, cough, and what not so it made it really difficult to breathe during the workout. I am back though I can't believe the difference between being healthy and not. I will be doing a blog tomorrow too after I do my most recent fit test. and measurements, I did a few measurements and wasn't too disappointed after 2 weeks off I haven't gained any inches back.. *WHEW* After the next 4 days finishing out this week Josh and I have decided to re-start the entire program, and repeat until we reach a healthy spot!

Well enough rambling I'm going to clean up from our week vaca in Mexico LAUNDRY LAUNDRY LAUNDRY... eck so I guess I should now throw a few pics from Mexico on here for your enjoyment :)

My amzaing silly crazy family

Beautiful sunrise the day we left

I love this man more than anything in this world

AH can't get over how much I love him

A majority of the most important people in my life!